I am a LONER

To begin with...Let me give a brief intro about me & my workplace...Currently, I am working at a Government Linked Company, or many people call it GLC...It is situated in the heart of Kuala Lumpur, or KL...Our company is quite well known to the Biotech community as well as general public as it is commonly seen during Buletin Utama TV3 every Tuesday & Thursay at 8.30 pm...Enough with the Company...

Now, back to me...I literally called myself a LONER, merely after few incidents that happened including what has happened today...I know I am quite ungrateful to say that, but this was what I felt earlier today...

I look at my watch, it shows 30 min pass 12...I am thinking of asking someone to accompany me for lunch...I rarely go out for lunch...But today, I make an exception...Hmmm how about Subway...That can be a good place to have lunch...

The first person that pop up from my mind is my so called bestfriend...But he rejected my offer...A date he will have...Hurmmmm...But its okay, I have other friends...

The second person, also rejected my offer...She have to go to somewhere...Erkk, okay lets fine another victim...

The third victim, also declined...same goes to victim number four & five...Arghhhhhh!! Why there is no one that want to go out for lunch with me...uhuuuu...

It is not fair for me to blame others...Maybe the timing is not right...Coincidently all of my friends are busy at the same time...This is life...Luck will not always be on your side...

I Miss Her

Ya Allah...Kenapa hati ku begitu merinduinya...Aku ingatkan masa akan mengubati segalanya...adakah belum cukup masa utk aku melupakannya & menghapuskan wajahnya drpd kotak fikiran ku? Berapa lama agaknya masa yg aku perlukan utk mengubati hati ku ini...Rindu itu terbawa2 sampai ke malam...

Last night, i dreamt of her...In that dream, we were talking & had a little jokes...Her cute face looks shining...Her smile mesmerized me...I am really longing of seeing that face real life...A short & sweet dream...It really helps reducing the yearn in my heart...I woke up in the morning with an unstable emotion...A mix of feelings...& the unstability was dragged & continued till the office...Kuatnya penangan perempuan tu dalam hidup aku...Adakah engkau juga merindukan ku sebagaimana aku merindui mu? Berkemungkinan juga jawapannya ialah 'ya'...Persoalan & jawapan yang ku reka utk menyedapkan hati...

But I guest, she must be happy right now with her newly wed husband...pergi honeymoon...dekat mana agaknya mereka ber'honeymoon' yer...adehhhh...Jangan nak mengada-ngada fikir pasal tu pulak...Sengaja cari penyakit...

To pamper myself, I tought of going to watch Toothfairy...No one were available to accompany me...haishhhh...Sedihnya hidup keseorangan ni...Fortunately, one of my colleague asked me to join him for a tea...So, cancel watching movie, daripada tengok wayang sorang, baik join yg lain minum2...Borak dgn kawan2 boleh juga hilangkan resah...

After performing my maghrib prayer, I slipped on my shoes & dragged them to the KLCC LRT station...Walking slowly while my head was like a video recorder that trying to retrieve back the old memories of me & her...My head is still full of her & our memories...Hurmmm...

& the LRT arrived...Ting tong...

Gila Bayang

Today is Townhall day...I must make my move to KL Convention Centre...I checked my phone, & its written there level 4, banquet hall...I went to level 4 but there was no sign board directing me to the banquet hall...Arghhhhhh!! Pagi2 dah buat orang pening...Luckily a nice looking lady with a nice smile, aproached me & said "from BiotechCorp?"...I smiled back while nodding my head...This way please sir...The lady saved my day...Wearing a nice dress & her face furnished with a nice smile...Eheeee...Thank you nice lady (^^,)

In the hall, my eyes can't stop staring around searching for someone...Someone that I have been longing for...Unfortunately, I did not see her anywhere in the hall...Kecewa kejap...Penat jer aku bersiap lama2 dalam washroom...cesss...Nasib baik makanan kat situ sedap...Terubat jugak hati ni...hik3...

Back in the office, I asked my colleague whether she saw her anywhere in the hall just now..."No"...adoiiii...Where is she?? Is she not well?? My head is full of those worriedness...Then my colleague told me that she just came back from upper floor & she coincidently heard that the girl is taking a week leave to go for honeymoon with her newly wed husband...dushhhhh...Abaikan...Tinggalkan...Buat apa lah aku ingat dekat dia lagi...~Sigh~

At last

Setelah mengharungi minggu yang penuh dengan dugaan & cabaran...Akhirnya tiba saat yg ku tunggu2...GAJI DAH MASUK!!! wehuuuuu...Cukup payah aku nak jimat duit utk sampai ke saat2 akhir ni...Nasib baik laaa Allah turunkan rahmatNya kat aku...Kalau tak mmg mati keringlah aku...uhuuu...

Bulan lepas mmg begitu banyak cabaran yg aku lalui...Banyak kejadian yg tak di ingini berlaku...Banyak kejadian yg menyebabkan fulus aku melayang...Sabar jer lah...Sabar tu sabar jgk...Tp bila dikenang2 balik mmg hairan & pelik jugaklah...Panas jgk hati ni dibuatnya...Yg pasti aku berjaya mengharungi saat2 itu...Harap2 masa mendatang akan membawa seribu kegembiraan & kebahagiaan kpd ku...

Hari ini tidak terlepas drpd masalah...Sejak semalam badan ku dah kurang sihat...Hari ini kepala dah mula pening...Kawan manja ku pulak buat hal...Hurmmmm, hampeh sungguh...Terasa hati jugak dgn si dia (nama dirahsiakan)...Harap2 pertelingkahan ini hanya buat seketika & semoga Allah merahmati kami...

Esok, kalau ikutkan kehendak badan, nak jer aku mintak MC...tapi kalau ikutkan kata hati, tak nak terlepas Townhall...Dato' CEO akan umumkan KPI setiap staff...Bonus??!!! Gaji pun insyaAllah naik jugak...Eheee...(tinggi nyer harapan...jangan kecewa nanti sudah lah...hahaha)...Esok jugak peluang aku nak skodeng minah yang aku minat tu...Tapi dah kahwin...baru jer kahwin...melepas aku...hahaha...Kecewa? Dah get over it kot...I will find the replacer when the time has come...Benda lama jangan dikenang...Jadikan sebagai pengajaran & panduan hidup...

Walau apa pun...Gaji dah masuk!! So jangan nak sedih2 lagi...Mari kita enjoy!! (^^,)v

(ada gaya CEO tak...hehe)

The Beginning

Sunday...24th January 2010...6 pm...Tmn Saga 2...Klang...